It's the New Year but I'm Discouraged!

It may be that you awoke discouraged on the first day of this new year. After all, you had high hopes for 2019 and things didn’t go as you planned. You may have had devastating and unexpected losses. You may have had unexplained and persistent illness. You may have fought depression or anxiety. Maybe you didn’t live up to your expectations of yourself and you feel like a failure.  

People around you are excited about 2020 but you may not be feeling it. I want you to know that I understand. I had a less than stellar 2019. I had hopes and dreams that I didn’t realize. It occurs to me that a bit of grieving may be in order before diving into 2020 with gusto.

I hadn’t considered that grieving could be the balm that heals enough to open the way for a new year. We tend to dive in head first without taking stock, without acknowledging our disappointments, without grieving our losses. Perhaps doing so would make for a better start to the new year.

It may be that you want to hide your disappointment and discouragement. I admit that that’s my tendency. After all, I have an image to protect! Or so I sometimes believe. I suppose we come by this desire to hide our vulnerabilities innocently in this world of pristine social media images. The expectation to be perfect is compelling and outrageous. It hurts us.

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I found this post on Facebook and it resonates with me. We are so quick to leap into the new year, hoping for a new me, looking at all that needs fixing. In addition to grieving our losses and disappointments, perhaps it would behoove us to also celebrate our tenacity and resilience. After all, if you are reading this, you have a 100% successful survival rate. That’s nothing to sneeze at.

So, I encourage you (and me) to take time to acknowledge your disappointments, to grieve, and then to celebrate the “old you”. You are brilliant. You are star stuff. You are perfect just as you are.

From that place, you are ready to envision and plan for this new year. How do you want to show up in 2020? Who would you be without your unrealistic expectations for yourself? Who would you be without access to a single thought about what others think of you or expect of you? Who would you be with more compassion and acceptance of your humanness?

Yes, at your essence you are perfect and you are also gloriously imperfect. These two ideas are not mutually exclusive. What a relief it would be to acknowledge, accept, and embrace this truth.

And if you want to play a bigger game in 2020, by all means, have at it. But playing a bigger game says nothing about who you truly are at your essence — that tenacious, resilient, wise, bright you. Look there. Look to your essence rather than to the constructed, made-up, imperfect you that is trying to fit into this demanding culture. You will find your ground there and from that place you can decide how you want to show up in 2020.

May you find peace. May you find comfort. May you live with more ease and flow. I sincerely wish you and yours a happy new year.

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How to Make the Most of 2020

2019 is almost over. 2020 is soon to dawn. A new year, a new decade. It is a significant time. A significant transition.

There is nothing magical about the passing of time. Nothing magical about a new year and a new decade. Really, it’s just another day. Yet, there is an opportunity here for deep reflection.

It’s easy to get caught up in the day to day demands. It’s easy to continue in our same old patterns, or as Hobbs says, “staying the course” … whether or not it’s working for us.

The brain’s primary job is to keep us safe. It wants what is familiar. It wants to conserve energy. This may explain, in part, why we struggle to keep the resolutions many of us declare at the beginning of every new year.  

Deep reflection can engage the area of the brain that can help us override an overly cautious attachment to safety and familiarity. Just simply stating that can feel a tad threatening. Yet, developing a capacity for change and flexibility could be one of our greatest assets, especially in these chaotic times.

Deep reflection can get underneath the superficial “wants” such as losing 20 pounds so I’ll look more presentable to a demanding culture. That “want” will not sustain us. But if we can look deeper, we may find a compelling reason to lose those pounds, or we may come to a deep acceptance of our weight exactly as it is.

When we can uncover the deeper meaning behind the changes we want to make, we’ll have a better chance of overriding a very powerful brain that wants safety and familiarity at all cost.

This is the point of visioning our future, creating intentions, and setting up enough structure and accountability to support ourselves.

I intend to join the gym this year. This intention comes from a place of deep reflection. I want to get stronger and more flexible. I want to be healthier as I enter my 60th year. Yet, I could feel the resistance immediately. My powerful brain wants things to stay the same.

I reflected, I found the deeper meaning, but if I don’t set up some flexible structure and accountability, I won’t follow through. The moment a friend and I decided to meet at the gym on specific days, I felt immediate relief. I don’t have to do this alone. After all, humans are social creatures.

When is the last time you invested in YOU in a significant way? How are you going to support yourself in this new decade? And why does it matter? How will you satisfy your brain’s need for safety and familiarity AND move your life forward in the way that you most desire?

Your next decade deserves some deep reflection, intention, preparation, and a flexible plan. Without it, you’ll likely repeat the same old, same old. And that’s perfectly OK if it’s working for you.

As for me, I’m off to the gym. I wish you and yours a brilliant new year and new decade. Be well!

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How to Handle Holiday Stress

Emotions of all sorts get stirred up during the holidays. Joy, anticipation, gratitude, sorrow, longing, and irritability are just a few. Some folks draw energy from the season. Others are utterly exhausted and depressed.

I remember dreading the holidays. They were painful for me. Often, I’d suffer for a full month. I was living in memories of past holidays that didn’t go well and worried about what might go wrong in the upcoming holiday. On top of that, I often felt shame about all that I didn’t accomplish during the past year, then worry about the coming year and stress about how things might go awry. All of this was a recipe for a miserable holiday time.

Lao Tzu says, “If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present.”

It’s easy to get caught up in thoughts of past and future. We all do it. Innocently. The trick is to wake up to ourselves, with compassion.

I have a client who is a confident, highly successful corporate consultant and trainer. She confessed to me that she was feeling terribly anxious about visiting her mother for the holidays. She had gained some weight since she last saw her mom. She anticipated that her mom would open the door to her and immediately start in on her about her weight. After all, she’d done it numerous times in the past.

I asked my client how she reacted when she believed her mother would receive her in this way. She said that she became defended, on guard, ashamed, angry, and withholding. She would shut down.

I asked if she thought her mother would feel all of that defensiveness. She knew that her mom would feel it and would most likely react negatively to it. I then asked her how it would be to visit her mother without the belief that she would give her grief about her weight.

She said she would be more open. She’d feel lighter. She would be present and not preoccupied with her mother’s reaction to her weight. I saw her breathe a sigh of relief as she understood that how she showed up had nothing to do with her mother’s behavior.

We both recognized that no matter how she entered, her mom very well may be critical of her weight. But rather than living that moment again and again before the visit, she recognized that she only had to live it once at the time it happens, if it happens.

So, she opened herself. She dropped her defensiveness. She dropped the story about how her mom was going to react. She dropped her judgment about her weight gain. She arrived at her mother’s house for Thanksgiving with presence and love. Her mom opened the door and beamed. She embraced her daughter and told her how good she looked and how happy she was to see her.

My client was able to bring herself into the present moment and find peace. She was able to find her way forward from that place of presence. And while it may have been difficult if her mom had been critical instead of loving, which was a very real possibility, she would have had more access to her own resourcefulness and emotional reserves. She would’ve been more able to respond from a place of groundedness, love, and wisdom. It wouldn’t have shaken her to her core.

Listen, the holidays can be tough. You could be gentle with yourself. You could give yourself a break and have compassion for yourself. You could have compassion for those around you who may be struggling, too. It can be a tricky time.

As much as possible, keep bringing yourself back to this moment. Recognize when you are living in a memory of a difficult past. Recognize when you are stressing about something that is not yet happening and may not happen.

When you can catch yourself living in the past or the future, you are able to bring yourself back to this moment where you have access to your essential nature: love, wisdom, peace, wellbeing, resilience, and more. All this will support you no matter what you face.

My family and I send you warmest season’s greetings. May you be happy. May you be safe. May you be you be healthy. May you live life with ease.

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Resolutions and the New Year: What Works and What Doesn’t

I tend to cringe a little when I hear the word resolution. The idea of resolutions and habits can remind me of failure and unreasonable expectations. The idea of discipline can remind me of my rigid dad and my fundamentalist background. The idea of structure and systems sounds too confining. These are all stories I’ve made up and these stories do not serve.

But here we are again, that time of year when we begin thinking of resolutions. “Oh my god, I need to lose 15 pounds. I need to increase my business. I need to exercise more. I need to be better at socializing. I need to put stronger habits in place.” The list goes on.

I can feel myself collapse a little under the weight of it all. I don’t feel encouraged and excited. I can feel ashamed and judged. We believe success or failure with resolutions tells us something about ourselves, such as whether or not we are good enough. No wonder we find it difficult to live up to them.

It doesn’t have to be this way. There is a perspective that can be expanding rather than limiting and these questions can be useful as you reflect on the coming year.

  • Who would you be if you stopped buying into the stories or narratives about what you’re supposed to do or be?

  • How would you approach this new year if you understood that accomplishments or failures tell you absolutely nothing about who you are? Read that one again.

  • How would things look different if you knew that you are already whole and that life is a game to play not to conquer or endure?

Take your time with these questions. Reflecting on them can be life changing.

Once you’ve reflected on these questions for a bit, you are ready to look back at the past year and plan for the next year, knowing that accomplishments and failures tell you nothing about who you are (yes, I slipped that in again!).

Are there changes you want to make in the coming year? If so, you could look at the situation objectively, without shame and judgment, without unrealistic expectations, without the painful narrative, and, conversely, without so much hype that you burn out by February.  

Looking back, even briefly, can bring much-needed clarity.

  • What went well? Take time to celebrate!

  • What understanding, strategies, systems, practices worked?

  • What didn’t work? No judgment allowed. Stick with the facts.

Next, envision the year ahead.

  • What do you want to create in your life or business?

  • What would it look like a year from now if you do create it? Be specific.

  • What do you need to put in place to be able to create what you envision?

  • What are you no longer willing to tolerate that gets in your way of creating what you desire

  • What are the specific next steps needed (doable and even tiny)?

You can hold all this lightly. There is no need to be rigid and demanding but reflection can lead to more clarity. Flexible structure can lead to more expansiveness and freedom. And remembering that the game of life is to be played, not conquered or endured, can lead to more flow and enjoyment.

As you enter into this holiday season, take some time to reflect. You are enough. There is nothing that needs to change to make you better or more acceptable. You are already whole.

And if you want to up your skill in the game of life or create something new, then, by all means, have it. Reflect on where you are now. Envision what you want. Determine your next steps. Put enough structure in place to support you. Watch yourself soar.

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Perfectionism, Self-Doubt, and the Fear of Failure

My partner and I have a little 15’ skiff we call the Freida (named after my mama). She’s old but she runs like a champ and we love her. I’m mostly the captain of the Freida and my partner is the pro at launching and trailering her at the Dunedin Marina. It’s not easy backing a trailer. It requires overriding what the brain wants to do.

I decided that I need to learn to back the trailer. We went to a church parking lot where there is plenty of room to experiment. I’m highly coordinated so I assumed it was going to be fairly easy. I was wrong. It was crazy hard. I was surprised!

Not only that, I got irritated. Really irritated. With myself. I felt stupid and uncoordinated. Neither of which are true. Yet, in that moment, I bought into those feelings as if they were true. The result? I rushed, failed, and wanted to quit. I had barely given it a try!

Why are we so quick to judge ourselves? Why do we give ourselves such a hard time? What is this need to be perfect? I suppose we come to this innocently, steeped in a culture of immediate gratification, expectations, and the rigid separation between winners and losers.

My partner told me to breathe and slow down. After a few more frustrating moments, I did. I reset my expectations. There is nothing wrong me. It’s simply a matter of practice. So, I practiced again and again until I began to get the hang of it.

It may be easy to wake up to ourselves with something as insignificant as backing a trailer, but what about when it comes to mastering a new skill in your business, relationship, or some other significant change that is important to you? What can you do about perfectionism, fear of failure, or negative self-talk? How do you develop the grit to see it through?

My partner held the key.

Breathe. Slow down. Keep at it.

When we buy into perfectionism, self-doubt, and fear of failure, we cloud our clarity of action. You could imagine holding a snow globe and shaking it. The snow obscures the clarity of the scene within the globe. When we become agitated, it’s as if we keep shaking the snow globe and wonder why we can’t see the scene. This, of course, leads to more agitation.

When we take that breath and slow down, we give our clouded thinking and stressful emotions time to settle. Some may call this mindfulness.  

Mindfulness, as described by scientists, is the experience of paying close attention to the present in an open and accepting way. Daniel Siegal, a leading researcher and author in this area, says, “It’s our ability to pause before we react. It gives us the space of mind in which we can consider various options and then choose the most appropriate ones.”

Mindfulness is about noticing inner signals. When you are lost in thought or emotions, you don’t see as much or sense as much. But, when you focus your mind on the present moment, all your senses come alive.

Frustration (or any emotion) naturally occurs. You could think of your feelings as a bus that pulls up to the stop. You can hop on that bus or you can stay put and let the bus move on. You have no control over the bus coming and going but you don’t have to hop on it and even if you do, you can hop off at the next stop. Sometimes all it takes is one mindful breath.

I have a client who gets extremely nervous before entering an important business meeting. Through our work together, she has learned the simple practice of sitting at her desk and bringing her attention to her breath for 60-90 seconds. When she’s done, she exits the office and walks into her meeting grounded and ready for whatever unfolds.

This tiny mindfulness practice has changed her experience by bringing clarity which enables her to tackle whatever her day brings. She was shocked that such a simple practice could be so helpful.

We think it’s the big things that have to change. We believe that we have to lose the 20 pounds or learn to be a professional speaker or get the big raise that proves our worth before things will change but the truth is that it’s the little practices that make all the difference.

Take a breath. Slow down. Keep at it. 

Clarity is your superpower. It can only be found in the present moment. You see, as my client worried about how her colleagues would view her, she was projecting herself into the future imagining their reactions and judgments. No longer in the present moment, her anxiety rose and she went into the meetings defended and not fully present. She was only able to show up authentically and powerfully when she brought herself back to the present moment.

When we get caught up in an imagined future or in replaying a painful past, we can become confused, stressed, frustrated, or fearful. We lose our balance. Mindfulness is the remedy. Take a breath. Slow down. Return your focus to the present moment. That’s the only place you will find your clarity and it is always there, ready to offer up the answers you need.

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How to Increase Your Confidence

What are the things you’d do, attempt, try, or create if you had unlimited confidence?

I read a book recently called The Confidence Code: The Science and Art of Self-Assurance by Katty Kay & Clarie Shipman. I loved this book because it normalized my experience. I am not alone.

Research shows that women struggle more than men when it comes to confidence. One study by Brenda Major, a social psychologist, found that “men consistently overestimated their ability and subsequent performance (on a variety of tasks or tests), and that women routinely underestimated both. The actual performance did not differ in quality.”

Overestimating your abilities can actually work for you because you tend to put yourself out there more often. Underestimating them often works against you, keeping you in your head and insecure.

Kay & Shipman found that “success correlates more closely with confidence than it does with competence.”

I believe it. I’ve lived it. I have the education, training, skills, and experience I need, yet, self-doubt continues to nip at my heels from time to time.

Self-doubt may be the single biggest factor that has held me back in my life and I have seen it repeatedly in the lives of my clients. It’s insidious. Is there anything we can do about it?

We’ve come to believe that confidence is a feeling. That is not accurate. Confidence is much more about taking action despite how we feel.

In the final chapter of their book, Kay & Shipman give us this simple but effective prescription for confidence:

“Think Less. Take Action. Be Authentic.”

I find it interesting and, oh, so true, that the very first part of their prescription is to think less. Over-thinking, rumination, and running narratives ramp up feelings of self-doubt, insecurity, and fear.

Usain Bolt, an Olympic champion sprinter, routinely walked the sidelines before his races. Unlike the other runners who were doing rituals, stretches, and other preparations, Usain would chat with and greet spectators, with a big smile on his face. Reporters asked why he wasn’t preparing for the race as the other athletes were. He explained that he ran better with less on his mind. He did not want to focus too much on the race.

Confidence is about preparing well, clearing your mind, and taking action.

Usain prepared, cleared his mind by talking to spectators, and then he ran the race. He didn’t need to conjure up any feelings of confidence. Neither do we.

A few years ago, I went bungee jumping (yes, that’s me!). I won’t go into the hilarity (and cussing) that ensued but I was terrified. No feeling of confidence came. Ultimately, I had a choice: Jump or don’t jump. After protesting much too long, I dove. The feeling of confidence never came but the thrill certainly did. If I had taken my feelings of anxiety and self-doubt too seriously, if I had believed them, (and I almost did), I never would have jumped. I’m so glad I did!

Feelings of doubt and uncertainty tell you absolutely nothing about your situation or about you or your capabilities. They tell you only that you are thinking thoughts of doubt and uncertainty.

I was perfectly capable of diving off that 160-foot bridge over a glacier-fed river but my brain, who’s main job is to keep me safe, attempted to convince me that I would die. The only way to override the message of death was to dive.

Preparation + Clarity + Action = Confidence (or in some cases, the clarity and courage not to act). I had a moment of clarity and I dove.

Clarity is our natural state. The feeling of confidence comes and goes. When we are preoccupied with confidence, we stir up insecurity. When we aren’t so preoccupied with finding that feeling of confidence, we have more clarity and we can act, whether or not we feel confident. This is empowering!

We don’t have to wait for a feeling of confidence in order to act. We could dive and the sooner we do, the easier it will be (as my hip, young, bungee-jumping-coach suggested).

What’s the good news? A feeling of confidence is optional! That lifts the weight, opening you to unlimited confidence, true confidence. You don’t need the feeling you thought you needed in order to move forward. You don’t have to wait for that feeling to arrive. You can prepare and act. As you take your feelings less seriously and act despite them, it’s often the case that your feelings of confidence will increase. That’s just the cherry on top. Nothing more.

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